Sunday, December 03, 2000

Award of Special Magnificence

Today, at the Changwon Korean Class (창원 한글학당) I won an award for perfect attendance. Some teachers presented me with this special textbook. I was so proud.

But while my attendance may be impeccable, my Korean is not up to par yet. The more time I spend and the more I learn, I realize that Korean will be much harder to learn than Japanese ever was. Some reasons:

1. Korean is far harder to pronounce than I originally anticipated and filled with difficult tongue twisters.

2. While not always true, I'm finding that oftentimes the people I speak with on an everyday basis purposely make it more difficult to learn. One Korean friend of mine has observed the same, even going so far as to say that, "I'm embarrassed to say, but some Koreans like watching foreigners struggle with the language sometimes. They pretend not to understand, even if they speak it correctly."

3. My students and teachers often laugh at my mistakes, making me less willing to try and practice at school. I try to be confident and brush it off, but with 30 kids laughing at a slight mistake, its difficult sometimes. So I'm not practicing speaking nearly as much with my students as I should be.

Besides the great award, what made me especially happy was this picture of myself that I actually like (Thanks, Ja-Yeon):

Sunday, March 12, 2000

Recollections: Perceptions about Prescott

My Recollections are instances in my life that I fondly recall for any number of reasons and I've written all of them down on or after June 2009, although the events take place over a very wide time span in my lifetime. Everything you see below is an account of my memory, which can be fickle and unreliable, yet often yields the most important life lessons and records those crucial formative instances in one's life story.

I don't remember exactly when this conversation took place (or even if it was 1 single conversation). Instead I remember being hurt and feeling insulted about the choices I'd made and I wasn't sure how to deal with it at the time.

On some Friday evening at the home of someone at the First Baptist Church college ministry at that time, somebody started a conversation about how boring Prescott, Arizona was and how much they couldn't stand Prescott, Yavapai College, or even Arizona.

I never took issue with what was said, but somebody else mentioned that I moved to Prescott willingly, to live with my grandparents so that I could gain residency and eventually move to Northern Arizona University. Upon hearing my situation, one of the main antagonists in the room expressed disbelief, harping me to explain, "How could you even KNOW about Yavapai College?"

The conversation took a nose dive from there. They knew from knowing me that I was very intelligent, and naturally they suddenly assumed Yavapai College was beneath me. Most of the people in the room attended either Yavapai Community College or Embry Riddle Aeronautical University.

While all friends, most were either stereotypical "pilot types," sporting cheesy crew cuts and tearing around in red Camaros from California, or "redneck" types" who had a gunrack in their AZ plated Ford pickups. We socialized together at First Baptist Church, but often pilots would congregate to chat about 'touch-and-go's' while the others would gripe about how much they didn't like their hometown: Prescott. With my dopey naivete, obsession with rock climbing, and Tennessee plates on my plastic-sided Saturn and a sage-like grandfather everyone knew, I didn't fit either mold very well. I understandably often felt out of place with the group.

And while I was confident in my choices, and explained how I had a good plan and a good reason to be there, many of them (Prescott natives mostly) couldn't understand why I would come all the way to Prescott. I'm wishing I'd given a more impassioned defense of my choices and my chosen home. It got me down that they didn't like it there and made me wonder about things I'd previously thought were good. I was happy there. Why couldn't they be happy for me? I enjoyed the beautiful surroundings and the screaming good deal on a good education I recieved there. Why couldn't they appreciate how good they had it too?

Thinking back now, I realize there are a lot of class undertones going on in Prescott. I'm reluctant to say it, but Prescott is basically a former cow-town turned glorified retirement community for rich folks. Like a lot of small towns with abnormally high real-estate prices, the retired rich folks are more or less served by a working poor underclass, and there's a lot of resentment among locals and natives (who often take for granted the good things about the area).

I didn't really fit the schema of their little model of the world in many ways. The pilots didn't get me because they were often so wealthy and couldn't figure why I'd come out there, but I wasn't one of the working class local yokels either, who'd come from far and wide and specifically chosen what they saw as their only option in life.
From Northern Arizona, 2000-2001